My crow Kosmos (Kaotic remix)

[FIAT LUX]

I guess tonight
When she hung up
I realized
something had ended

There'd been a breach
inside the womb
whose safety I had
for so long depended
PRETENDED
the razors were not real
Numbed my psyche
till I didn't feel
Them cutting through the Core
of Me
Fragmenting my Reality
Dissolving who
I used to be
And leaving but
an ashen crater.

I yielded to fate
and destiny
Let the Universe make
what it would of me
Whatever form I took
Who I came to be
I trusted would be
later Greater.

And so I sit
spinning my tale
Testing the belief
I cannot fail

Plugging needles
into veins
Popping pills
Unclogging drains
Reliving memories
and pain

The crucible
of the mundane
will sanctify
what I Remain.
The chorus of a million voices
collective memory
burned in my brain.
Lain dormant, latent
once again sane.
To make my choices
seem real again.

The slings and arrows hurt
And I don't care
Cuz I know they're not really there
In the darkest depths of self I stare
Shall either find warmth and quarter there
And cease to be
a beast who sees
Or dissolve.
Forever free.

[FIN]